Complete Lists 4/5 Post 6th - Alyson

My Accountability List 8/27-9/2

1. Daily Practice Meditation and Diarycard

2. Life Drawing Session

3. Apply to a Call for Artists

4. Start Blog for Accountability List 

5. Write rough on Asian American

6. Write rough on Family Series

7. 12 drawings ink or whateva

8. mid-complete 2 paintings

9. do a super crappy photoshoot 

10. check in on that bank situation

11. confirm camping trip with work and sisters

On Tue, Aug 27, 2013 at 12:34 PM, Alyson Highsmith <alysonhighsmith@gmail.com> wrote:

Hey!

So I fucked up too and did not do my #9. Daily shit is hard to do. Lame lame lame! Camping is postponed for us once again. 

Another note: Emily is joining us officially this week. How is Sunday for a meet up? I'm free Wednesday night as well. 

1. Life drawing session: Sunday morning at the Atelier

2. 8 ink drawings

3. Print out a list of 5 residencies and 5 shows to apply for: got them all saved and ready

4. Develop film:

5. Finish becoming Asian book: being asian american can be confusing, the end. 

6. Read Chapter 3 Baudrillard: this made absolutely no sense to me, i seriously was just reading words and seeing just the shapes of the letters. 

7. Rough out all painting sketches (5-6) YEAH!

8. Check in on residency: Yep! 

Hello Ellen!

I hope your trip to Italy was amazing and inspiring. I just want to touch base and see how things are coming along at the Rensing Center. I look forward to meeting you as well and hearing from you soon! 

Sincerely, 

Alyson Highsmith

9. Daily meditation practice and diary card: Booo, 4 out 7 days

On Sat, Aug 24, 2013 at 11:49 AM, Alyson Highsmith <alysonhighsmith@gmail.com> wrote:

Here's mine!

---------- Forwarded message ----------
From: Alyson Highsmith <alysonhighsmith@gmail.com>
Date: Tue, Aug 20, 2013 at 12:53 AM
Subject: Accountability List
To: Maraya Karena <marayakarena@gmail.com>

Hey Maraya!

Thank you for joining for my roommate birthday party, it felt really good to have you there. Lets sleep over party sometime very soon. 

Congratulations on your accountability list completion. Is that 3 total now? or 4? Soon we'll be taking a beautiful and breathtaking journey to the most fantastic and car accesible location possible. Side note: I'm still mulling over the gifting circle. Money and me. . . we have it rough. Give me a little more time. I'm digging your meta narrative, can't wait to see the next and the next and the next versions. 

I finished my list too! I'd grade myself a B+, which is a huge improvement. Should we set up a blog for just us on our accountability lists? We could set it up so only you and I have access to it view and write it in. We'd have more of an organized record of our achievements. We could make a point to write a bit on each check off the list. It'd be more work, but I can see it as a potent self reflective tool that is different than a personal journal in it's singular purpose. 

1. Rough out one painting of family series - Come to my studio sometimes and I'll show you what i'm twerking with. 

2. Figure drawing session - saturday morning, 9-12, busty blonde nude

3. Call Anna - didn't answer but still arranged a lunch date

4. Call Josie - didn't answer i'll call her later

5. Read Asian Amer Chapters 3 - 5 - yes done did that, i think i'm really racist. i'm confused

6. 4 ink drawings - ink and water color drawings, felt really good getting into it

7. Buy Stretchers/Canvas for 1 more family painting - that shits expensive

ACCOUNTABILITY LIST 8/20-8/27

1. Life drawing session

2. 8 ink drawings

3. Print out a list of 5 residencies and 5 shows to apply for

4. Develop film

5. Finish becoming Asian book

6. Read Chapter 3 Baudrillard

7. Rough out all painting sketches (5-6)

8. Check in on residency

9. Daily meditation practice and diary card

Complete 5th and Post 6th - Maraya

okay.
so this week i did everything except a clean draft of my metanarrative article. I just couldn't do it.
boo-urns.


By next week I WILL:
1. have a clean draft of my meta narrative article
2. have a garage sale
3. invest in bit coins
4. set up lynn and terri with grey water information
5. decide about peru
6. outline money and community article
7. do my practice every day

... and have a play date with you and your friend!!!
long over due.
<3

Maraya's 5th List

This week I WILL:

1. Finish my personal and financial statement for the PW Winter Inensive
2. Have a CLEAN third draft of Meta-narrative article
3. Have another conversation with Terri
4. Set up the garage sale
5. Invite Jen, Brooke and one other woman to circle
6. Talk to Rob
7. Do my practice every day.

This will be my fourth week doing all the dos if i do the dos!
Lets go somewhere beautiful!!!

4th List Complete, Post 5th List - Alyson

Accountability List

Accountability List

x

Alyson Highsmith <alysonhighsmith@gmail.com>	Aug 13
to Maraya

Hey!

That sounds like a wonderful idea! So I have 2 weeks complete and you have 3 weeks? Is this right? I'm so proud of us doing this for a month. I don't know about you, but this has really put a fire under my ass and I feel great about all these tasks I accomplish on a regular basis. Time seems so much more finite now. 

I finished my list this week! Barely, once again. I'm totally being a C+ lister right now. Abstaining from libations will definitely help and I found that anxiety I get from smoking puts in a right mind frame to totally feel Butler. 

1. Work for Mom for 5hrs

Worked on Wednesday from 10:30-3:30

2. 10 hrs of drawing

Combination of sketching, life drawing session and still lives

3. Go to Life Drawing

Monday night at the Atlier in Temescal Oakland, kinda super lame, maybe I'll go back . . 

4. Do 4 complete still life or landscape ink drawings

2 Laundromat drawings and 2 stillives

5. Read Becoming Asian American Chapter 2

Yep! 2nd Generations have it rough man, IDENTITY CRISIS GALORE. it's not just me. 

6. Read Baudrillard Chapter 2

Yep! The consumer has no free will! Comsumerism is based on class and social status and the desire for both. And a whole bunch of stuff 

7. Read Butler 47-78

Yep! Who create all this binaries? Were they always here? What does everyone else have to say about this? Also marriage is a homosexuality interaction. man on man all the way. 

8. Stretch Canvas 40 x 40, now gotta prime!

Accountability round 5:

8/13 - 8/20

So I have a goal of completing the family series in 4 months, so that's 6-7 complete paintings ready to frame and show

1. Rough out one painting of family series

2. Figure drawing session

3. Call Anna

4. Call Josie

5. Read Asian Amer Chapters 3 - 5

6. 4 ink drawings

7. Buy Strechers/Canvas for 1 more family painting

4th List - Alyson

Hey Lovely Lady!

OK

Late List

1st!

 I owe you $30, you owe me $60. I think we should keep the moneys seperate from other moneys so we not just paying eachother the same bills back and forth. Also I think for every week we do everything on our list we should get a quarter point towards a get off free pass. 

And now my list!

1. Work for Mom for 5hrs

2. 10 hrs of drawing

3. Go to Life Drawing

4. Do 4 complete still life or landscape ink drawings

5. Read Becoming Asian American Chapter 2

6. Read Baudrillard Chapter 2

7. Read Butler 47-78

8. Stretch Canvas

OH BOY!

3rd List - alyson

Hey lady!

I'm glad you got everything done this past week. I slacked at the last minute. . . .ugh I didn't work 5 hours for my mom. I don't think I'll put that on the list again, it doesn't really enhance my life and its purely obligatory volunteer manual labor. Otherwise I got the rest done. I miss you and want to seeee you.

I'm on my phone so I'll email a done list later as well. I'm happy to see you getting your article out there!!

Fwd: Re: suggested article for Reality Sandwich

Fwd: Re: suggested article for Reality Sandwich

Inbox

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Accountability List

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Maraya Karena	Aug 5
to me

---------- Forwarded message ----------
From: "Ken Jordan" <ken@kenjordan.tv>
Date: Aug 4, 2013 9:19 PM
Subject: Re: suggested article for Reality Sandwich
To: "Maraya Karena" <marayakarena@gmail.com>

Thanks, Maraya! This is great. I'm scheduling it for tomorrow. We'll ping you when it's live. 

Please send a short bio we can use for you. 

Cheers,

Ken

-------------

Ken Jordan

Reality Sandwich: http://www.realitysandwich.com

Evolver: http://www.evolver.net

Sent from my iPhone

On Aug 4, 2013, at 8:41 PM, Maraya Karena <marayakarena@gmail.com> wrote:

Hey Ken, 

Here's the article!

I cut out some parts and included a bit towards the end about how the task at hand is not only to create more festivals, but to build sustainable systems of living with each other and the planet. Rhizomatic networks of communities all culminating in the great turning towards Festival Earth.

I also changed the line breaks into prose, which I think ultimately flows better.

Feel free to cut anything else out or move things around. If there is anything else I can do, please, let me know!

many thanks and much warmth, 

maraya

On Mon, Jul 29, 2013 at 8:29 PM, Ken Jordan <ken@evolver.net> wrote:

Hi Maraya,

Glad you're up for preparing your article for Reality Sandwich! In general, RS articles are 1,500 - 2,500 words, but we're not strict about length. I think that dividing the piece into 3 sections is fine, if you want to keep that structure.

Look forward to seeing the finished revision.

cheers,

Ken

On 7/27/13 2:36 PM, marayakarena@gmail.com wrote:

Hey Ken!

So great to meet you!!
I would definitely be up for making those edits and incorporating more about what comes next for festivals. How long do you think is an good length and do you feel that the three part division should be taken out entirely?

I'll get started right away and if you have any other feedback or suggestions I would love to hear them.

much warmth,
maraya

On Jul 26, 2013, at 9:54 AM, Ken Jordan <ken@evolver.net> wrote:

Thanks for making the connection, Nick!

Maraya, great to meet you! I agree with Nick. Your post would make an excellent article for Reality Sandwich. Would you be up for editing the 3 parts into a single article, removing the repetitions (like Victor Turner's 3 points, which appears twice), etc? Also, you might consider including some of the feedback you've received from readers since the post first appeared, particularly regarding "what comes next" for festivals in order for them to grow and develop as you discuss.

Let me know what you think.

cheers,

Ken


On 7/25/13 11:13 PM, Nick Meador wrote:

Hey Ken,

I want to suggest a piece for Reality Sandwich called "The End of Festivals, the Beginning of Festival Earth" by Maraya Karena. I met Maraya last year in Evolver Boulder. She has both first-hard experience at a variety of transformational festivals, and also a background in cyborg anthropology focusing on rituals and rites of passage.

Maraya has posted the article as a public note on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/notes/maraya-karena/the-end-of-festivals-the-beginning-of-festival-earth/10151728403952884

It's a diversity voice in the buzzing festival season, for sure. It brings into question whether these events are achieving their said purpose, and looks for ways to do that more.

I'm CC'ing her in this message, in case the two of you haven't met. I'm sure she'd make a valuable contributor to RS.

I hope all is well on your end.

Warmly,
Nick

--

Ken Jordan

Evolver.net - http://www.evolver.net
Reality Sandwich - http://www.realitysandwich.com

                                ... It's our world to change.

3rd List - Maraya

Hey loveness!

The wireless in my new place isn't working so I can't link you to all my dos from my phone, but scared strait from last week I did them everything on the list. Here's for next week:

1. First draft cosmological shift article
2. Research for holograms & law of atraction text
3. Coordinate September schudule
4. Circle follow ups
5. Give one reading
6. Contact asha about greywater system
7. Do my practice everyday.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tzuUviee89o&feature=youtube_gdata_player

2nd List Done and 3rd List Posted - Alyson

hey girl!

hey what's going on with otis. i'm so confused and you are probably even more confused. we need to talk, that's seems incredibly painful. 

oh folly! while i want to encourage you to aim high, it's also important to be realistic. this week, you can do those things! oh i did all the things on my list! yay!

dude, did i even send you my list? i swear I did but now i can't seem to find it anywhere on my email thing. okay. here's the list i'm pretty positive i sent you. 

okay lame lame lame. but here's the list again, no cheats or nothing. 

1. go on hike, hiked the coastal trail from vet's hospital near ocean beach to the golden gate, not as deep woods hike but still beautiful. 

2. read baudrillard, the system of objects and simulacra and simulations-i think i get it, but he uses a whole bunch of big words. oh boy. 

3.butler-gender trouble - subjects of sex/gender/desire- not totally sure if i absorbed it all either, but gender/sex yeah they're different and a whole bunch of stuff. once again, big words. 

4. put landscape paintings on website-go check it out i did! i still have more coming once i find/make them

www.alysonhighsmith.com

5. open bank account - i think all i could those blood suckers

6. pay phone bill - i did it! 

7. daily practice - still not consistent on same time, but i eventually get around to sitting still somewhere

8. teach emotional regulation chart to someone - i called up Josh Mott and explained the chart to him. it was fun!

okay for this week's accountability list:

1. Work for Mother for 5hrs

2. Go to Life Drawing Session

3. Read "Becoming Asian American" Chapter 1 

4. Read "Colors" Chapters "Black and Brown" + "White" + "Red"

5. Landscape Drawing

6. Stretch 3 rolled up Paintings

7. Daily Practice

8. Do DBT homework

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2nd List Snaggles

marayakarena@gmail.com	Jul 27
to me

I will definitely not charge you. 

You did all you could. 

I think I'm going to have to pay out the ass tho for getting an inflated idea of what I could get done while in the throws of negotiating a polyamorous situation while being terrified of abandonment. 

Otis might be gone. Otis the one I actually enjoy spending time with. Otis, my favorite person in the whole world. He said it was over for him. he said those words. I hope this is an adjustment process. I truly intend that this can be overcome, but wow. ouch. I am very sad. 

Do I have to pay $30 for each thing I don't do? I think in keeping with my own rules, I do. Get ready for a large lump sum coming your way.

-m

On Jul 25, 2013, at 5:11 PM, Alyson Highsmith <alysonhighsmith@gmail.com> wrote:

Hey!
So I put open bank account on list which has turned into the biggest buracratic nightmare ever. I owed $341 to bank of america, went there, had to then go to wells Fargo to cash checks, back to bofa and then to sfcreditunion, which told me I couldn't without an official letter which will be mailed in a week. Please don't charge me for this, i did all I could to open an account without going to a big bank. I'm so fustrated.

Love, alyson

2nd List, Accountability 7/19 - Maraya

marayakarena@gmail.com	Jul 21
to me

1. PODCAST: http://youtu.be/dDqha3uZTrI

2. FRACTALS!

A Story of Patterns BIG and Small 

A Story of Recognition for the One and the All

There are patterns BIG and small

There is a same-ness that some people don't see at all. 

The way blood moves through the veins in your body, 

An how water moves through the rivers of the Earth.

This is the SAME pattern One BIG and One small

That some people don't see at all.

Inside the solar system, planets orbit the sun.

Inside your atoms, electrons orbit the nucleus for fun. 

Or you know how a map of the internet looks like a human brain?

Or how the information contained in your whole body and in one cell are just the same?

Sometimes if you're quiet and peaceful and still,

Open your eyes, take a breath and you will

See how a bigger pattern leads into the smaller,

The way that a wave comes out of the water.

Let's say you're sitting quiet peaceful and still,

looking at a magic tree if you will,

You see how the trunk branches into branches?

And how those branches are like trunks from which smaller branches branch, yessss??

And from those smaller branches, what miracle do you see?

Right there, reaching out, all bright GREEN and leaf-y??

Within that leafy green world, what pattern lies within?

Why, there's a trunk that's branching and smaller branches branching therein. 

And speaking of trees, do you know when you breathe

That you and the tree give each other exactly what you need?

The tree breathes out oxygen, which is what you breathe in.

Then you exhale carbon dioxide like a very dear friend,

because carbon is precisely what the tree must breathe in. 

And this completes a cycle between you and her/him.

So here is a pattern if you can imagine it so:

That the partner dance of breath that helps you and tree grow,

Is happening RIGHT NOW between all tree and human kind

You see, this is the part that really blows my mind: 

All of that oxygen and all that carbon gas,

Between all animals and all plants does pass.

So the small cycle pattern that you breathe with the tree,

Together with all the other people breathing where their trees be,

Create a BIG pattern that's the same shape as all the small,

And also as big as the whole planetary ball. 

This is the way a fractal plays you see.

As big as everything,

And small enough to be just between you, tree and me. 

3. Begin forwarded message:

From: Maraya Karena <marayakarena@gmail.com>
Date: July 17, 2013, 4:19:29 PM PDT
To: Maraya Karena <marayakarena@gmail.com>
Subject: Mid-Summer Massage Special!

Hello Lovelies!

In honor of Mid-Summer and all of our Nights and Dreams, I am offering a
BUY 1 GET 1 HALF OFF mid-summer special!!!

The HALF OFF massage can be received by you
OR by any lucky person of your choosing any time
from now until September 22nd of this year 2013.

Massages make great gifts! For you and your loved ones!!
Hand-painted gift-certificates are available upon request.

I fully believe that massages are a part of health and wellbeing.
I am committed to keeping my prices affordable and my massages accessible.
You can book an appointment on-line @
my website: www.marayakarenacmt.com

Wishing you all a happy, healthy, sun-kissed summer (filled with wonderful massages!)
In aloha and deepest gratitude,
maraya

(415) 713-5534
www.marayakarenacmt.com

________________________________________________________________________



P.S. I am also revving up to do more infant massage trainings with parents!
If you know any parents who have an infant age 3 weeks to crawling who might be interested in learning how to massage their baby, please send them my information. During the training I do not touch any one's baby!!! ONLY THE PARENTS MASSAGE THEIR BABY!!! I demonstrate how to give a full body massage on a doll while parents practice with their little ones.

Baby massage has many, many benefits for parents, infants and society as a whole. I feel deeply passionate about this work and am offering classes in the spirit of service and completely by donation.

Spread the Word! And Thank you!!!

4.Beautiful Rioha, 

I have JUST SENT MY GIFT TO YOU in the mail!!!!!!!!

It is coming your way via UPS
Tracking number: 1Z3E88E40371969691
Reference Number: MMENVKDJ9GVRV

They say it should get to you by Friday at the latest.

Blessings, abundance and complete Home-Centeredness to you sweet sister,
love in all its forms, 

YouTube - Videos from this email

2nd List

Yeah totally! I accidently sent a draft email. Ignore it. The first one I sent is the one I want to do. The life drawing sess is Saturday morning at 9. 3 hours $15 dollars. No instructor. Actually let me go this first one solo so I can feel it out for you.

On Jul 15, 2013 10:49 PM, "Maraya Karena" <marayakarena@gmail.com> wrote:

Imma hold you to it! You can do it!! I believe in you!!! And when you go to a life drawing session can I come?!? I've always wanted to do that. I didn't know there were ones you could just go to with out being in a class.

On Jul 15, 2013 8:55 PM, "Alyson Highsmith" <alysonhighsmith@gmail.com> wrote:

Hey Maraya!

Here's my accountability list:

Due Monday night 7/22

1.Website structured w/ CV and Bio

2. Family Series started with sketches and images printed

3. Go to a life drawing session

4. Apply to residency in NC

5. Make list of grad schools and requirements

6. Go for a city hike

7. draw in sketch book

Okay love ya!

Alyson

On Sun, Jul 14, 2013 at 10:51 PM, <marayakarena@gmail.com> wrote:

Alright, Alight:
By NEXT SUNDAY I will have::

1. gifted Rioha
2. filmed a podcast
3. put my festival note up on facebook and send it to michael/ sol purpose/ evolver
4. have text for fractal kids book done
5. respond to nick, james, andrew
6. Choose and begin a daily practice
7. send massage promo e-mail

the first list (alyson)

hey girl! awesome list. i'm super bummed we can't go camping, i really need to get out of the city. isn't raoul or pablo able to take care of missy for a day or two? i remember her telling me that her neighbor guy is able to walk and feed her. 

okay so for my list, which i guess is just a day. 

1.i'll put up the bare bones of my website

2.finish that painting in the studio

3.do my dbt hw

the first list (maraya)

By Friday Maraya Will:

1. Complete festival note and send it to limited peoples
2. Write a Letter to Terri about feelings
3. Email: -james, bob, deb, amber, nick about potential grad programs
4. Make a list with ten grad school ideas.
5. Mail out infant massage stuff
6. Film podcast
7. Call Shava

and so it is.